Simple plan - Welcome to my life.

Do you ever like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong,

and no one understands you.

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud,

and no one hears you screaming.

No you don't know what its like

When nothing feels alright

You don't know what its like to be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down, when no one's there to save you

No you don't know what its like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of being so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more,

before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,

While deep inside your bleeding



No one ever lies straight to your face

And no one ever stabs you in the back

You might think I'm happy

But I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like what it's like..

Welcome to my life..

Nil.

Been thinking some stuff lately ...


Maybe its time to go back, where i should just shut off to the world ...


what should i do ?

CLAYMORE~~

i know i know ..
its been sometime since i last blog ..
but anyway no one will view de la ..
take so long to update .. lol

PLANTER NEW BIRD
Our Xin Jiao has come !!
cant wait for them to come back from course ..
is time to pass on the duty .. =)


FORKLIFT
Anyway, the advance party has gone to claymore
left us .. yea to the little people..
and a PAIN IN THE ASS for me been alone as forklift Group..
i did almost everything that relate to the forklift la ..
alot of paper work.. help to pump the diesel ..
bla bla .. moreover i not yet forklift trained ..
Bcos the course i suppose to be taking
is cancel, cos some fucker take us away from the slot...
and without telling us .. last min then we know is cancel.
now i need to sent the forklift for maintenance...
i cant possible drive since i not trained..
Lucky i have 1 person from cec to help me ..
Thank him so much man ...

anyway..the main topic..

CLAYMORE

Next week i going to Claymore liao ..
this week is totally a very hectic week for us ..
especially when come to packing our bags.
we only have 2 bags, full pack including field bag..
plus all the other things like toiletries, uniform, LBV etc ...
HOW TO SQUEEZE IN !! ??
i will say is impossible la .. sometime i dunno wat to say but
this system is damn dumb la ...
cant we separate our field bag and duffer bag ..
field pack is really eating the space in my duffer bag ..
give me really a bad headache lor ..

then alot of stuff came in between like guard duty ..
our stuff very hard to pack .. due to the duty ..

we r in the state of confusion as no one tell us wat to do much ..
is all DIY ... good luck man ...

heard claymore is fucking hot there ..
the camp is very big, very inaccessible
from the map tat sir show us..
soccer field is like so small la .. in the map ..
tok about parade in the sun .. and also fire drill ..GG !! ..

2 main exercise over there .. is very siong for us man ..
sianess ..
to be in alpha group always kana all this shit
but hey ... we all in alpha , we all will suffer together ..
now we alpha people r quite close ..due to all shit stuff ..
cos 'some' people we dun really like is at claymore .. woo ..
KABOOM !!! .. LOL ...

will be flying off at 31aug .. back at 17sept ..
Hope all the best over there for us ..
good luck and Bon voyage for us ...
SEE YAY !!


FRENZ
Thurs met up with poly FYP clique ..
celebrate Billy 24th birthday..YEA older then me =P!!
anyway.. is very nice to meet up my good old FYP clique
damn fun to hang around , sadly is like awhile only ..
cos too late liao, everyone got to go home after timbre.
ah yang left half way, cos he not feeling well..
overall is very good to see them again ..
hope we can have a KTV Meet up..=)







today, went to meet up my Tennis clique..
played abit, the string break liao ..
damn chui la .. cos the racket too long nv touch..
then string will harden ..
sianess, must go change string liao..
today was on form .. nice rally with them..
damn fun to play with them ..





anyway take care everyone ..
cheers .. =)

New=)

Somewat new blogskin i did ..
i like it , simple and nice ..sweet !!
i call this plain...
=)

anyway recently in army have been a busy up and down for me..
firstly, we won the inter company basketball competition.
very very happy =)
now i am inside 35SCE basketball team going for inter unit competition.
hope we can win and proceed to inter formation.

next week is a high key for us.
will be a very tired week..
basketball training..
deployment training..
route march..

recently some changes in the company.
makes the whole company morale very low..
now we unsure whether tue and thurs got night out.
anytime they feel like, jus cancel nights out.
even friday and sat, dunno wat time bookout so on so for..
dun dare to make promises to frenz and plan outing.
i thought every tues and thurs we can go nights out, have a good leisure or rest
before going back for more work.
very disappointed..
Claymore coming soon.. hope everything is ok ..
going for forklift course as well..


i dunno wat happen to the clique but
hey Cheer up ... stay happy !! =)

Yoz ~>

i know blog is like going to get rusty but err..
nth much to blog about thought cos NS .. everyday is like this lor ...=/

Anyway, alot of training in camp, Exercise, outfield, duty, etc ...
and i develop quite a bad rash.. MO jus give me a cream and didnt went well..
i went outside doc, and at least he give me a antibiotic .. and it stop the rash ..
doc say is my uniform got bug from outfield or some bug la
. . i was thinking of my LBV though...
until now , i can see i think i healing liao .. hope it get better...



Cohesion
recently went out with platoon mate for platoon cohesion,
went to eat swensen for lunch and a ass kicking movie after tat ..
Swensen was awesome ..!! food was great .. value for money
thought not we pay .. but we willing to folk out some cash to reduce the cost for commander.
after tat , we get to watch IP man2 for movie ...
4.5 stars .. awesome !! but IP man1 was better ... =/

Company cohesion was fantastic ..
we went Dragonboating,
its the first time i dragonboating and was kind of fun
thought is tiring, but we kind of enjoy the fun of wetting our enemy ...so do they to us .. =( lol
after dragonboat, BBQ for lunch ..
unlimited food was intended for BBQ , but not alot of people was having the BBQ,
either they ate, tired, lazy, or jus dun wan to cook ... lol
but overall was a fun cohesion.. and a nice short week , long weekend
which eventually become short after saturday .. =/

Gathering
After planning for long long time,
we at last have the chance to meet ..
having to meet my FYP peeps..
everyone change so much man ..
ladies getting more and more pretty..
guys become more and more handsome ..
lol ..
anyway , we went to have our dinner and ION some Jap restaurant .
restaurant wasnt much of a personal order but for sharing de ..
food was nice , but potion was little ..
after tat , we went to BigO for desert ..
we talk about Sch, army life, uni life, job ..
really very stress outside working world .
moreover those who intent to study UNI and work .. good luck !!







short and fun week ...
my best frenz just get his Class3 license..
Congratulation !!! ...

anyway .. i start to get tired and writer block.
O by the way, slowly i trying to plan gathering ..
so hope to see old frenz too ..
SEE YAY ...!!


Yx~Peter
Peace.want.love=)

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I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!! ..
hope u all earn ur money ah *cough* ... =)


Anyway, this month wasnt a good month for me ..
like having to draw lot both time , one for parade and for chinese new year duty.
and so lucky i got both and chinese new year day 1 is my duty ..
although they gave us 2 days off , but i still think y am i so unlucky ...
After all this thing...
accident happen ...
my finger was fracture by the GS table..
doc describe as fracture, but actually is jus a crack..
i was given 3mths excuse upper limb.. but doc say take 6 mths to recover completely.
i am upset by this because alot of activites was so called unable to do ..
like Basketball, Rock climbing and guitar ...
this is my daily activities except for climbing ...
i cant even take ippt now cos of my status ..
there goes my rank and my extra pay ...


another thing is
i kept having people say tat i am gay,
fucking hell NO ...
when anyone say that, i am so fucking piss off ..
i knew i got alot of guy frenz because of my sports background and my army ..
but please , tat doesnt mean i am gay la ...

i am very tired liao ...
even my friends i knew for years
is not even concern about me ...
but my current clique is more closer to me now ..
they r more concern about me and also know how i feel ...
i dunno wat to say to my old clique ..
maybe i am wrong about them la ..
maybe someday i might blog about tat soon..


sorry , but jus a temp emoness ...


very tired ..

2009 ~ 2010

Happy New Year All ...!!!
Its a brand new year ..2010 ..

2009 now become memory ..
good memory will be in our heart and mind.
bad memory will just let it be a experience and forgive and forget.

2010..
where everything start afresh .. =D


2009
Jan
Where my life changes and where we grow and understand more .
start of 2009, where i am still working at DELL Funan Direct Store.
waiting for my NS letter after all the massive, irritating and painful checkup.
and sure enough, it came after very long wait. i was quite ready and was quite
Endu about going to NS to train my fitness and learn different combat skill.
i told my boss about my letter and was to quit my job during near end of jan.
of cos i was the most efficient employee, so they are quite sad that i will be leaving.
haha, nah, i was jus joking about the efficient employee, but they are quite sad
i will be leaving the company.

Dell
this is the first full time job i have work, and i have learn alot of stuff about
Customer, product, sales, the company system ... etc ..and more computer stuff..
it's my most fruitful moment working there with regards to stress and working environment.
my boss and supervisor was very good to me, very patient and taught me alot of stuff.
my senior cum colleague was very helpful to teach me how to get close to customer,
how to sell, and how to handle customer.
working has always been stress no matter wat kind of job u work.
i have work in many kind of job since Sec 4, especially in the F&B line. however.
alot of knowledge must know in the IT line, that's where my diploma comes in help.
alot of experience will need to gain in handling difficult customer.
after 5-6 mths of working in DELL, i have definitely learn and experience it.
when i am working, pay is not the matter in my mind,
its the knowledge, learning environment and experience which is most important.
there is no internal conflict like some jobs and companys,
nth more i can say then i have very very good colleague. =)
i am truly thankful to them in giving me a fantastic experience at DELL.



March
1march~Birthday.
i am very happy cos of those brotherz who spend the day with me for my birthday .
my sister also brought me a bag... which kind of expensive to her =( , (she is like 15. )
i was surprise with the sms and facebook greeting i get as well... Thank everyone.
i thought that this year will be a quiet birthday for me, as i am not "loud".
at the start, i thought no one will remember my birthday, except for my regular brothers.
i really nv expect facebook greeting neither does my handphone will have sign of birthday sms.
when the greeting come in, especially from frenz tat long time meet nv meet.
i was so touch and thankful for been my frenz .
alex visit me for both reason, birthday wishes and also farewell as i was going to NS
boon treat me to dinner at ajisan,
ben and yy treat me to prawning.
chris, benny, and tuan did a last min celebration when i went to visit them at swensen
even through is a free small ice cream, but all in all, i was touch.
i was greatly touch by everyone , and appreciate every single thing you all have spend with me.
i really happy and thankful to all my frenz who walk into my life.

NS(due to restriction in content, this might be a short one)
12 march 09
where boy become man.
yes, NS .
that is the day i see Tekong BMTC SCH2
siting in the ferry terminal looking back, and say,
thats it, i am here in NS .

i was guilded by the staff there to place where i surrender my IC for 2 years.
in exchange for 11B, there goes my pink card, to become a green one.
after that, we were give our bags full of army stuff and was guilded and brought to our
company building.
my parent came around and see me off , and there goes my 2weeks in camp training. wont be going home during this time.
everyone was like at a state of loneliness cos no one know each other.
slowly, we start to engage to conversion and some of us at the first day, met some frenz already.
we were guilded to our bunk , unpack our stuff. soon after we try to get to know our own bunk mate.
slowly, we get to know which other better.
finally i know that was posted to
leopard company.
a very good company and i learn alot of stuff inside..
we learn everything and suffer everything as a whole platoon.
the more we suffer together the more we r bonded.
each of every individual of us put our effort to do wat we can.
no matter is wayang, training, kenging, or watever is the reason.
we are always together as a platoon and also as a company.
and train to the last bit of breath to the final training for POP.
its a moment where we all will separate from BMTC to our individual unit.
its the most painful but still need to go through to suffer for separating from my buddy, and my platoon. =(
but there always good memory=).


June
22 June 2009
After POP, i was posted to 35SCE.
From there , i was also posted to alpha.
remember the first day i pulling my bag and field bag full of stuff,
saw some of my leopard platoon mate, but we got separated to different platoon,
except for one of my platoon mate which stay with me in the same platoon, lucky!.
anyway, is like first day entering bmt where u dunno everyone and blur blur de.
so we will guilded to our company and after that to our bunk.
same as bmt, we try to get to know which other.
soon after after only less then 2 weeks of suffering.
the whole platoon very bonded, met alot new and good frenz there.
soon after we had to separate again, bcos some of us will be staying at the same company.
some will posted to support coy and boat coy.
bcos we r so close, we dun wan to separate with each other.
but the fact is life go on, i was posted to support.
and really feel sad that leaving the company bcos of my frenz inside.
some of us even cry, that is how close then.
thought i nv cry, but still feel emo. lol
thereafter, was posted to been planter.
in there, met more new and good frenz.
went for courses and gain new skill in planter.
overall, it was a good experienced been planter and also in alpha.
been together with ur frenz that support each other is always the best.
=)

thats about my life of 2009.
big event with bigger experience learned.

2010
Hope that this year will be a good year ..!!
though i know alot of hard and tough time will be coming this year .
especially army, but we will get there.
i believe everyone have their up and down.
no different from this year, but hey, we are 1 year older.
u do the thinking, up and down is part and puzzle of life.
no matter is relationship, friendship, job, army or anything.
if there is a will there is a way . GOOD LUCK to 2010
let it be a better year, no matter wat ..
see each day with a smile =).
it will change ur good day to a better day.
all the best to all ur career, relationship, friendship and hardship.
Peace.want.love=)
Yx~Peter