du lan

when something goes wrong .... everybody points at me ... all me me me me me and me .... this is so fuck up ..... majong, work... everything and anything......maybe i really am pure stupid or blur ..but i know where i go wrong and stop pointing finger at me .... always my fault ... sorry if i throw the manjong tile that i dunno that the person wan .... sorry that the customer wan me to do alot of thing that make me slow for wat u think actually is my service slow ... sorry tat always i huh here huh that .... sorry that i cant believe i typing this but if u read this , i dunno whether it mind u jus abit or alot ... i dun care ..... i jus had enough ... as long as i am with any of my frenz .. i will be the one to be aim and shoot with all type of small to big comment .... jus because i easy bully .... easy target right .... watever shit man .... maybe this world is not for me .... only my poly frenz goes with me better as we all understand each other .... nobody understand me ... no one .... i leave too many thing inside me .... i jus need to release one day ... when is the day ... dunno ... i jus know ... my fault my fault and my fault ..... banquet , i know i am slow ... but i wan to improve , yet they dun give me a chance ... somehow i being leave aside , no one want to partner me because i am slow .... izzit me or izzit the frenz i always r with ... maybe is me tat i am not so open minded with their "shooting" ... maybe is my frenz dun understand me , or izzit i dun understand them ...